A Pawn

la la la

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 01:19:39 GMT

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. dannay
2. danielle
3. nellie

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my art
2. my veganism
3. my do-gooder streak

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my skin
2. lack of communication skills
3. that i don't stand up for myself more

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. calculus
2. time
3. the size 0

THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
1. people who ask stupid questions because they weren't listening
2. boys and the girls who fight over them (actually those girls make me sad)
3. menstruation

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. the future (especially my financial "health")
2. relationships
3. heights

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. my car Agnes
2. soy milk
3. toothpaste

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or in my case solo artists):
1. kenna
2. peter gabriel
3. weezer sometimes

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS @ THE MOMENT:
1. "take me out" - franz ferdinand
2. "dock of the bay" -dunno
3. "phenomenon" -ll cool j

THREE PEOPLE YOU SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH:
1. annay
2. myself
3. assorted family members

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
1. dive off of a high dive
2. live forever
3. travel anymore this summer

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. chatting w/ friends
2. exercising, suprisingly
3. reading (i've rediscovered reading for pleasure!)

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE:
1. a job
2. vegan chapstick
3. a full set of eyelashes

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. art teacher
2. something to do with animals or the environment
3. art therapist

THREE COLORS YOU LIKE:
1. bright orange/yellow
2. magenta
3. bright green

THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1. africa
2. Australia
3. south america

THREE THINGS YOU JUST DID TODAY:
1. drove on the freeway
2. watered plants
3. played soccer (kind of)

hahaha

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 04:17:36 GMT

go here: http://www.whiteninjacomics.com/archive-comics.shtml

you'll have fun.

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 18:15:56 GMT

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:

" 'I don't know,' she said."

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?:

air.

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?:

DC Childrens hospital.

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
10:45

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:

10:48 i rock

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:

myself typing and jenn talking

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?:

saying goodbye to my mom and little sister. they went to visit my cousins today

8: before you came to this website, what did you look at?:

other people's artwork. its all about DeviantART

9:What are you wearing?:

pajamas ... sweatpants and a zip-up sweater

10: Did you dream last night? What about?:

yeah but i forget what it was about

11: When did you last laugh?:

i am laughing right now

12: what is on the walls of the room you are in?:

prints of paintings ... white paint....

13: Seen anything weird lately?:

my own hair. its crazy

14: What do you think of this quiz?:

la la la

15: What is the last film you saw?:

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:

my college education! a car... everything my parents need... a new house and a house cleaner for my mom :) my trip to ireland and a vacation for my mom

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:

i like to play videogames ... a little too much

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:

i have actually been thinking about this ...and i think i would change the world so that everyone, every single person, has as much love as they need. i think that would solve many of the problems we are dealing with currently. more love = more compassion...more willingness to share and be peaceful and caring towards others...

"love is not blind; it sees more, not less."

19: Do you like to dance?:

i loooveee toooo

20: George Bush:

no.

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:

i dunno. i don't think about things ilke this. blah i dont know good girl names. elle...eliza...AGNIS lol

22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:

tobey? charlie? i dunno

23: Would you ever consider living abroad?:

um hell yes. i want to go to europe or somewhere in africa.

Jenn gave me the idea...

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 04:01:18 GMT

A - Act your age – LOL are you kidding?
B - Breast size – *sigh*
C - Chore you hate – cleaning DISHES. OH MY CHRIST.
D - Dad's name – Bernard
E - Essential make up item – eyeshadow/eyeliner
F - Favourite actor/actress - haha asking the most indecisive person ever...umm johnny depp and tobey macguire *drools* orlando bloom aint bad either. i like morgan freeman and tim robbins ...sean penn is really good too. actress = charlize theron and bunch of others.
G - Gold or silver - i want a tiny gold stud in my nose...but i like tarnished silver
H - Hometown – San Mat-eee-oohhh
I - Instruments you play – Played the piano...hahah i never follow up with anytihng
J - Job title – student! i need a job. painter perhaps. i might be able to put my work up somewhere sometime soon. WOOT
K - Kids – HA.
L - Living arrangements – w/ parents as well but I'M moving to SF next school year (so there you future NY inhabitant)
M - Mum's name - Susan
N - Number of people you've slept with – Ok jenn i win. i CANT count them on one hand because there HAVENT BEEN ANY! ha i beat you.
O - Overnight hospital stays – never...?
P - Phobia – darkness...dark places at night .... dark places at night when i can't put my back against a wall or something. i also hate being in crowded small enclosed areas. i hate it when things are clogged... does that count?
Q - Quote you like – love is not blind. it sees more not less.
R - Religion – N/A
S - Siblings – 2 sisters- one is 21 the other is 11
T - Time you wake up? – hmmm anywhere from 6-7
U - Unique ability – i can do this crazy thing with my thumbs haha
V - Vegetables you refuse to eat – hmmm i don't know if there are any haha vegi pride!
W - Worst habit – pulling out/breaking my eyelashes....or being really nasty (ungrateful,selfish, etc.)to my family members
X - X-rays you've had – mouth
Y - Yummy food you make – the sexy vegan chocolate cake (Browner liked it and you will too)
Z - Zodiac Sign – Sagittarius/Capricorn (born on the cusp)

and for all of my friends to see...

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 03:59:34 GMT

My collage! Finally got it up here. this is a collage about my heritage. the mouth and the forehead deal mainly with african americans but i included images of different skin tones to give it that mixed feeling... i'm a bunch of different things (swedish, irish, english, african-american, native american, etc.) so i thought i should honor that. i'm not actually related to all of those people but they were all very important figures in the civil rights movement of the 1960s. my single favorite thing i've put in is Emmett Till. he is in the upper left corner of my forehead. there is a picture of him before and after he was mutliated. You can't even tell its him in the picture next to his face because it doesn't even look like a person...so sad...

anyway i'm smiling because i'm celebrating the memory/importance of all of these people. so yeah please tell me what you think :)

throws up

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 07:18:59 GMT

dude i'm so full. this is disgusting. can't wait to get a prom dress. don't have a prom date. funny how that works lol why am i so tired at 11 on a saturday night? god i cant wait to be free in san francisco next year....or ireland during the summer. CHRIST! this is going to be so awesome. less than 75 days....AHHHHHHHHH

gonna write to george soon. i'm a little upset with him. really wanted to take him to prom *growls*

WOOHOO

Sun, 07 Mar 2004 22:04:55 GMT

this is like the sexiest day of my life ever. i have hardly any homework due tomorrow (that i know of at this point) OOOH im so happy i can't contain myself! and and and i heard from puget sound this weekend so that means i've gotten into 3 colleges now: dominican, seattle u, and puget. life is grand, my friends. and i saw a tragic but wonderful movie (Monster) last night in the city... im so glad i saw it. it made me cry. charlize theron did an aamzing job. this has been a good weekend. yay

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Fri, 13 Feb 2004 04:17:34 GMT

We're watching Dead Man Walking in class. Its based on a true story.

I'm also reading Crime and Punishment for English.

Lots of violence, no?

whines a lot

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 22:36:54 GMT

an old friend called me out of the blue on friday which was really cool (even though he kind of unloaded his problems on me. i was glad to hear from him but it has been almost 4 years...it was kind of uncomfortable) but unfortunately i had a big project due by midnight (strange teachers) so i couldnt go out that day. so he called me saturday and said he'd come pick me up at my house. he called like an hour and a half after he said he'd come and told me that he had happened upon some old friends of his and they had gone out. he said he'd call me back in a few hours which was kind of a jab cause it made me feel second rate. anywho i was supposed to be going somewhere at 7:30 so im sitting at home wasting my day, 4 o'clock passes....then 5 o'clock ....then 6. then i realized i had wasted my entire saturday waiting for him. needless to say i was kind of angry. i really hate when people say one thing and do another. and i can't stand sitting around waiting... especially for people to call. but oh well. i'm kind of over it i just needed to vent the only good thing was that The Ring was on so i watched that (as it was getting dark AND i was alone in my house, no less!) *is proud*

i don't know if i should be posting this...

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 03:28:57 GMT

You're Transgender Barbie! You're well, there's no
way to describe you. Pick a sex and stay with
it!

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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*blush* how'd you know?

why...?

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 03:09:38 GMT

Police Reports in the San Mateo Daily Journal:

" Belmont
7:48 p.m., Starbucks, 1071 Alameda de las Pulgas. A woman with a black eye walked into the Coffee shop, grabbed a customer's coffee, drank it and walked out of the the shop.

...

MILLBRAE
7:49 p.m., 300 block of El Paseo. Suspicious circumstances. An unknown subject knocked very loudly at a woman's door and then yelled, 'STUDENT' at her."

no joke.

"I IS COLD"

Fri, 23 Jan 2004 23:53:23 GMT

i had a pretty bad day yesterday but today I got some good news in the mail. A piece of artwork I submitted for a contest for this organization won ( [link]) and now it will be featured for every student who participates in the organization to see! and the greatest thing is multiple schools get involved so hopefully a bunch of people will see it! I am really happy because I busted my ass doing it on the day it was due. yay! I would put a picture of it up but I didn't have time to take one. Oh well i'm still excited though :)

yay

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 08:25:41 GMT

i talked to a friend i hadn't heard from in a long while. its always nice to reconnect. im tired though so its off to bed for this one. ill write about steps of rome tomorrow.

::slurs:: if you have feet...

pay it forward

Tue, 13 Jan 2004 21:47:00 GMT

cute movie.

i like kevin spacey...

...a lot...

but maggie does too

so

no one can make fun of me.

ha ha!

hurah for older men!

ummmm

Thu, 18 Dec 2003 01:41:24 GMT

its been a while hasnt it?

well my finals are almost done. just 3 more. hardest one is last. im going to feel awesome once im done though.

im trying to distract myself from studying.

spider man is on right now. its such a distraction. i had to move because tobey maguire is just that gorgeous. if i ever met anyone that looked like that id probably explode. and being the obsessive person i am i had to go look up information on him. hes intelligent too...and twenty eight. hes like my ideal. how sad is this? ive never even met him and yet here i am haha im starved for males! haha no really id like to meet someone like him, however loser-ish/creepy that sounds. except people that are attractive and intelligent kind of intimidate me. and when danielle is intimidated one of the following (or a combination which is even more awesome) will happen: silence, sputtering, drooling, or saying incredibly stupid things. i know i know im a natural charmer! lol

btw i hate this livejournal name
im sending it "cold stabbies" (as opposed to warm fuzzies) as i type

i need to brush my teeth! "yoopeee"

is it bad that i cant even watch the movie because it'll make me sad that i'll never meet him? i need a life lol

Fri, 17 Oct 2003 03:18:46 GMT

mm i want to sing and yeah. i want to play the piano very much.

la la la (*sings out of tune...rather loudly*) :)

i love this song.
ms apple is very talented,
and very pretty,
and smart. i like her :)

iiiiii am tired

just went through someone else's "blog"
hes older...but i dunno. when i read things he writes that aren't specifically aimed at me it reminds me of how different we are. he knows so much about certain things. i want to learn from him sort of but i also know that he doesn't know other things, not to sound snobby but yeah heh this all makes sense in my head. not so much here...but in my head it all fits...

immmm tired

lol

anyway i want to make some more artwork. there are so many prolific artists around here! and im definately not one of them heh i really want some round brushes though. the last time i bought brushes it must have been at least a year or two ago. wow. that makes me think about how much i've changed since sophmore year. its crazy to think about how fast it has all gone by. i think i'm almost ready to leave though. i kind of want to go to seattle so i can be away from everyone but i also want to go to school in SF just because its SF and i'll always love the bay area.

anyway im a little lonely. kinda wish i had someone to talk to. my thoughts are all over the place.

just thinking about how i think much more than i speak but i know that that doesn't necessarily mean i am "better" or "smarter" or "deeper" than other people. im tired of those words anyway. just like im tired of the word depressed. people just throw these words around...but they are so empty and devoid of meaning. like the word "normal"...it means nothing to me. blah im tired and im rambling. i should do some homework or something. maybe ill find prince charming in one of my books? hahah i'd say mr. right but thats just too creepy (given my last name) hahah oh man bad pun :) (my forte)

i am ashamed and disgusted

Wed, 08 Oct 2003 03:44:37 GMT

i am incredibly dissapointed in the citizens of CA and this country in general. not that i expected much in the first place but this recall has caused my opinions on people in this country sink to a new low. we are, it seems, the laughing stock of the world at present. this entire ordeal has made me me very very sad

...?

Tue, 07 Oct 2003 02:05:44 GMT

I don't know why but it seems that almost all of my aquaintances treat me like im much younger than they are, especially in terms of mental capacity. Though it tends to piss me off, it's kind of funny in that people make this judgement based on completely superficial reasons and are totally unaware of who i really am. Why do people feel such an obsessive need to place others in categories? because its less work for them? because taking the time to consider all aspects of other's personalities takes time away from some trivial concern of theirs? because people are unwilling to challenge their own stereotypes and prejudices? because people are too lazy and complacent? Why is being up-beat equated with being ignorant? because people assume that a goofy person only has a one-dimensional personality. so must one be a solemn and frigid bitch to command some respect?

Whatever the reason, I'm really fed up with being treated like a lesser being. I know that I do not deserve to be treated like a child, especially not by my peers, or by people slightly older than i am.

Sun, 28 Sep 2003 22:04:40 GMT

feel like i've stayed in the same place too long ... like i've outgrown it interms of usefullness. All its doing now is draining me. i want to get away

im on a seesaw

Sun, 21 Sep 2003 05:47:29 GMT

i saw nick today along with a bunch of my sojourn buddies :) i was really glad to see them all but i do wish more had been there from our trip. haha yeah and that whole being over him thing = out the window, not that im like head over heals, because im not at all, its just...hmm well... its nick :) what can i say? i cant even get what i feel for him straight anyway so blah anyway he was being his crazy self and dancing around in front of lots people...and then he had to drag me up so i would too. and of course it set off a chain reaction that resulted in my pulling a few people up also. so yeah hes a lot of fun when we're in a group of mutual friends. i just wish we could be more often :( id enjoy hanging out with him a lot more. ummm and hes too nice. he made me "hella" babyland cds and got me this silly card game. and i guess im trying to get used to the idea of not being his interest or main interest (if hes still interested at all). i dont really know what hes thinking...my guess is that im sort of a friend to him with very occasional benefits (?) he seems pretty comfortable with that scenario, which is like the complete opposite of me and how i react to this kind of situation. its really not what i wanted to be at all but i think i should just relax and let things take their course. ill have more fun if i chill out. maybe we'll enjoy each others company again? i guess whatever will be, will be :) ahh ive been reading too much of Demian, methinks. heh narf i am struggling a bit with the concepts of the book, but thats probably because ive been reading it in large chunks rather than taking each idea and really chewing on it. i like it so far, but there are definately some things i agree with and some things im not too sure about. anyway ::newsflash:: i ran straight into this poll (rather forecefully too hahah) at the sojourn "get-together" and now have a fatty bruise on my thigh. hahah oh man i am the queen of gracefulness *tries to distract self* narfff relationships are made to be much more complicated and confusing than they need be. i guess i have trouble with that "possession" concept ahh *pulls hair out* *eats a ton of salad and chokes on it* hahah random inside joke-ness

beep

Thu, 18 Sep 2003 23:08:00 GMT

im bored

Wed, 17 Sep 2003 01:33:52 GMT

Hecate

mmm vegan cookies = unexpected smiles

Wed, 17 Sep 2003 00:31:04 GMT

i was having a normal day...it was kind of crappy due to my self absorbed egomaniac math teacher but yeah...imm part of this club at my school that promotes diversity while trying to raise awareness about certain issues involving it and i know this seems really miniscule but they had vegan cookies that were home made. it really made my day because i rarely get to be included in little things such as eating with everyone else. and this is not some "woe is me" trip, i just am really appreciative of them taking the time to think about me. its nice to feel like i fit with everyone else every once in a while. i dunno. people being thoughtful made me smile today. anyway now im tired and frustrated about my math homework. i think im gonig to need a tutor for the first time in my life. narf. but yeah i guess today the positives are outweighing the negatives. i just...its strange. i cant describe my state of being without sounding like i want pity. im never really on the same page with other people. the only other time ive really felt like part of a group was with the sojourn to the past trip, and i've probably been seeking some sort of community since then. it was really amazing to be with a group so big and feel connect to them. i miss it very much. it was intoxicating in a way because it showed me the potential that any group has to really cooperate peacefully. it was so hospitable that people were able to share really difficult things from their past...really open up...and it made me want to too. anyway im tired and i feel like playing video games. hahah soo pathetic. ehhh i really want a job and a love interest. it makes life more interesting. i feel very blah right now. i want to be passionate about something. ....hmm technically i really have a number of things to be passionate about so i cant complain, things that are much more important like veganism or amnesty international or the well being of environment etc but they are much less self serving i guess. those really come first though. i guess through committing myself to some cause i'll be able to further feel out my personality. i really dont know whether i should have another relationship until i feel like i have a better grasp of who i am. i cant allow myself to loose my identity, especially before i really understand what it entails. damn i wrote a lot today. heh its nice to actually have time to analyze things that im not required by school to think about heh at least every once in a while :)

ahhhh i dont want to do my homework

Wed, 03 Sep 2003 03:42:07 GMT

so i survived an entire week of school. AP Gov is way easier than AP US so i am much more relaxed this year (so far). immm tireeeddddd and i dont want to do my homey-work. i really need to paint but ahh i need sleep the most. im just wasting time online. i am the ultimate (deluxe) procrastinator. hahah ultra! ahhhhh ugly words. ahhh im such a hunchback. i cant believe college applications are due so soon. and on that note....USF is going to be visited by the dali lama himself and guess who gets to see him? I cant believe i am getting such an awesome opportunity. i only wish annie could go also but yeah...drama and yeah. but i cant help but be excited. im really looking forward to it. im so lucky! anyway yeah so tbats whats up. i want some cookies but i dont want to make any right now. too lazy. *snore*

UMMM YEAH if i were him id be a sexy bitch (but i like andy the most cries)

Wed, 27 Aug 2003 05:16:49 GMT

you are pete! you are a charmer that loves to
mingle with the fans. you don't eat meat and
you listen to hardcore. you are one really
straight edge mother effer.

which member of Fall Out Boy are you?
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lol ok so im not hardcore...but i am vegan! YAY MEEEEEE ummm and im like painfully shy around people id ont know. this quiz is wrong! I DEMAND A RECALL ELECTION (lol what?) im AM obsessive jessica! dude andy is such a cutie .... *falls over* why cant people like that live around sf? ahhhh

look at him : http://quizilla.com/cgi-bin/result/list/list.pl

he's so my-style. Innsanity.